I guess this is pregnancy hormones?
I still need to get a picture of me and my belly -- I was at a end of tax season party for my husband last night and even though I am 6 months along, people were saying that it was hard to tell I am pregnant. (I've "chunked up" and I can FEEL the hardness of my stomach. But evidently people around here don't reach out and touch your stomach and with the loose clothes I wear it just is not obvious that I am pregnant. And after all, I was fat before I got pregnant so even that is not a good clue! I think dear Boaz is somewhat disappointed. He's looking forward to seeing a baby belly!)
I'm mostly dealing with fears. The Pregnancy Week by Week book says if my baby was born now, it would have a chance of surviving... But it still isn't ideal, know? So last night, when we were coming back from said party, I had vivid "day" nightmares of the car crashing and going into labor, and my poor baby in NICU and struggling for life... As I looked around us, it seemed ALL the cars were swerving into our lane right in front of us, and we were taking all the curves wide and running over curbs and into sidewalls of tunels and... Well, I just had to grip the car side door hard and clamp my mouth shut to say nothing (or as little as possible) to my husband because I was pretty sure it was my imagination NOT his driving causing my terrors! So I guess maybe this is pregnancy hormones finally showing themselves?